I added to this here due to another cousin of mine Eddie Rehm that took his life also to suicide in January. This second issue rocked me back on my heels and I had to take some time off to deal with the suddenness and the illogic of these losses. Personally at this point, I internally have been able to resolve the illogic, but it still hurts. I would ask though that for those of you who do pray, that you pray for the immediate families of my kin. They are still heart broken over this. There are no words that one can use to assuage the grief experienced in this.
Please forgive the tone if it sounds like it is cold and emotionless. I have Autism, and due to the way my brain is wired, losses such as this have to be processed through using logic due to the way my brain is actually wired. I do sense and feel emotion, but that is highly controlled due to the on/off/if/then/yes/no nature of how I see and perceive life and to protect myself and others around me. Also words and especially the choices of words when I have to convey personal losses such as this may not entirely convey the emotion that may be there. I personally do not use emotional subtext/undertone in my word choices. This is typical of how one with Autism will communicate. Given all of this, I felt this deeply and had to come to terms with this.
I added to the current thread here because for me the two losses are linked together. I am currently on the other side of this but losses of loved ones always leave a hole in my life that cannot be replaced because each person is unique. Remember and cherish the good times and blessings.